Naw, naw, it’s cool. If I’m ever feeling down or discouraged, I just need to channel that through dancing and I will feel better. I know I will. Just keep practicing. I’ve been learning new stuff, I need to keep going, and eventually I’ll make so much ankle breaking variations. Oh, man. I’m gonna work on those tomorrow. Just ankle breakers and footwork. 6 step, 1 legged six step, 1 legged 3 step, 12 step, 3 step, and whatever more. Pop outs, cc’s, zulu’s, hooks and locks, knee rocking, and all of  those reverse. I can do it man. 

It sucks when you know that you are not good enough at something. The one thing that you love doing especially. I know that doing it should be enough to keep you happy if you really love it, but it’s not enough for me. I’m trying to find my ambitious side to get better, to become one of them, but instead I have no ambition at all and all I do is just dream of doing it. I wish I could make these dreams come true. I know I can, but then all I do is just sit down. What the hell am I doing?